[Reflections] Not getting into Universiti Malaya is not the end of the world. It has always been competitive, even back in 2006 when I completed my STPM.
This is a long post, please be patient with me.
I did not manage a perfect CGPA of 4.00, but I was satisfied with 3.42.
โขGeneral Paper (Pengajian Am): A
โขBiology: B
โขChemistry: B
โขPure Mathematics: B
In SPM 2004, I scored 10As (7A1, 3A2). I applied for every major scholarship available at the time, yet received no reply. Why? Because I made mistakes in my applications and did not optimise my chances. Information was limited then, and I simply did not know better.
I was offered places at UNITEN and MMU for engineering, but I declined. My parents could not afford to support another child studying in West Malaysia while my brother was already in UPM. Form 6 and STPM became my only path, since I was not offered matriculation or foundation programmes.
At that time, I felt deeply disappointed. But looking back now, it was a valuable lesson.
After STPM, I applied more carefully, determined not to repeat the mistakes I made after SPM. With my CGPA, I had more choices and kept an open mind. Out of eight programme options, I was offered my preferred choice: Bachelor of Nursing (Honours) at Universiti Malaysia Sarawak (UNIMAS). Coincidentally, it was in my hometown, at the same university and programme where my mother worked as a clinical instructor. Sometimes, God arranges things in ways we cannot immediately understand.
I began my studies with a PTPTN loan, but later managed to secure a JPA scholarship after working hard to make the Deanโs List. That support carried me through all four years at UNIMAS, and it was truly a blessing.
I knew then that entering prestigious universities such as Universiti Sains Malaysia or Universiti Malaya as an undergraduate was unlikely. These institutions were highly competitive, as they still are today. Yet the journey I took brought me to where I am now. Since graduating from UNIMAS in 2011, I have no regrets. The experiences, challenges, and people I met shaped me into who I am today.
In Malay, we call this rezeki, or blessings from above. When one door closes, another will open, provided we are willing to create new paths and step forward ourselves.
There is a Malay proverb that stays with me:
โUkur baju pada badan sendiri, hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih.โ
Knowing your own limits, being humble, and persevering with effort are all important. Life is not always fair and there will be discrimination and setbacks, but that should not stop us from seeking other options or creating our own opportunities.
In October 2021, I finally entered Universiti Malaya to pursue a Masterโs in Public Policy, the university I had dreamed of since my undergraduate days. I graduated in 2022 while still working at the EU, 11 years after my bachelorโs in 2011.
Now, as I prepare for my next chapter, I remind myself of a phrase I learned from my Muslim friends: โWallahu Aโlamโ โ God knows best. But faith alone is not enough. We must put in effort, remain open to opportunities, and keep moving forward.
Looking back, every rejection, every closed door, and every disappointment turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Life is not about where you begin, but about the resilience and choices that carry you forward.