The most common question I am asked usually by Utah men, often by members of the LDS faith is how I “reconcile” or explain Celeste Borys’ allegations against Tim Ballard. Some go further, suggesting she and Ballard were simply having an affair.
Others ask whether I “see the problems” in her statements, or whether I truly believe her.
Let me be clear: yes, I believe Celeste. Those issues you have? It is typical.
And her experience is not unusual, it is typical for victims of sexual assault.
From the moment I watched Celeste speak at the press conference, I recognized a pattern I have seen many times before. Still, we conducted a full investigation. We reviewed every piece of evidence, testimony, data, and corroborating material available to us. Only then did Lynn Packer join the legal team as a consultant, and only then did I step in as an advocate. I do not publicly support victims unless the evidence gives me absolute confidence.
People ask, “How could a woman continue contact with the man who harmed her?”
This question shows a fundamental misunderstanding of how sexual assault actually works.
Once I went legit from the life around 2003/2004, and I retired still alive and not in prison. I still had two trials to go through and won.
Before I ever wrote a word at ACJ, I had already spent years working on wrongful-conviction cases and with a legal nonprofit serving low-income families, women, and vulnerable communities.
I also experienced firsthand what it means to be falsely accused and thrown into one of the worst juvenile institutions in the country, a facility now facing waves of lawsuits for the abuses committed there since the 1970s. I have seen what violence, coercion, fear, and survival truly look like.
In 2024, all the lawsuits truth and internal that was secret. They remain to the PEACE Center. disgusting. No, it is Illinois Department of Corrections (IDOC) and an institution called Illinois Youth Center (IYC) St. Charles. IYC St. Charles.
So, save the "bleeding heart liberal" accusations for someone else. You have not seen nothing until you seen a heterosexual male out turned on pure manipulation or fear alone. When guys asks for new pants about three sizes too small, and they use a pencil for eyeliner, the whole time they are in there, they are a woman. They are used to settle debts, the guards would purchased them and all sorts of things. I could never look at those guys the same outside. When you see a heterosexual man get turned into a woman for survival, they never said no, resisted or gave consent. They just started calling a man(older kid) Daddy. This is called getting "turned out". I was 13, and never prepared for seeing it. You're in jail, there is rape and stuff, but it scares you.
You know, when Jessie Watters and Tucker Carlson started calling Trump "Daddy", I had flashbacks. I did. Cause I know of one type man does that. See my organization had a ban on homosexual behavior. It was a death penalty, of a horrific kind. Nothing against gays, we did business with them. Had friends. Members could not. It was viewed as a weakness, and extortion is the foundation of criminal organizations. This was to restore honor and then some.
That background matters here, because it dismantles the naive belief that victims behave in ways outsiders consider “logical.”
Violence is a language.
A universal one.
Before human beings had written words, we understood force, dominance, and intimidation. And when someone has power over you physical, emotional, spiritual, institutional you don’t simply “walk away.” Victims often remain in contact with their abusers out of fear, shock, shame, confusion, or because they believe they are somehow responsible.
Utah struggles with this understanding more than almost any state.
Why Utah doesn’t recognize what happened to Celeste
Utah is dominated by a purity culture that defines a woman’s worth by her sexual “cleanliness.” It is a patriarchal environment in which many women are conditioned to protect the men who harmed them. Advocates in Utah, LDS and non-LDS alike have told me repeatedly that most Utah men do not understand what sexual assault legally or practically is.
The statistics reflect this:
Utah ranks #2 in sex offenses.
Utah ranks #1 in unreported sexual offenses.
Women in Utah consistently express distrust of police, church leadership, and even their own partners when it comes to reporting assault.
In the six years of our investigation into Ballard and OUR, the most common message we have received has been from Utah women who were sexually assaulted or abused but never reported it.
They are afraid of not being believed, They're afraid of being blamed. They're afraid of their family’s reaction, or of the consequences their husbands, fathers, or partners might face if they tell the truth.
And this is why Celeste is targeted?
Every man who tries to defend Tim Ballard, usually behind an alias, goes after Celeste first. She is the linchpin. If they can discredit her, they believe they can discredit everyone.
But her behavior is exactly what professionals recognize as the most common pattern of victims:
Victims may not immediately label what happened as “rape.”
Victims may not resist or fight because they fear escalation.
Victims often blame themselves.
Victims frequently continue contact, hoping to normalize or make sense of what happened.
Victims may defend their abuser because they know him socially, religiously, or professionally.
Victims minimize their trauma to protect their abuser’s family.
These are not exceptions they are the rule.
Then we have a former LDS man say the courts decide "truth"? Call me "un-American"?
Justin's legal misunderstanding, and I to make this clear, if you want me to take your bullshit seriously from now on, you need use your real name and spend some time on what you write, maybe investigate first, then write your bullshit?
Back to Justin.... hopefully he wasn't turned out
Justin, who once left the LDS Church but now defends Ballard with a fervor, stood on a public platform and insisted it was “un-American” to believe Ballard is guilty before a trial. He repeatedly invoked “innocent until proven guilty” as though it were a blanket prohibition on public judgement.
What he didn’t understand is that this principle is 1,000 years older than the United States, rooted in Roman law and the Magna Carta. And more importantly, the doctrine is:
“Innocent until proven guilty... IN A COURT OF LAW.”
It is a restriction on government power, not human thought or public speech. The courts are not arbiters of truth, they are arbiters of punishment. If court rulings were the sole definition of truth, the First Amendment would have no purpose.
It always feels like I have to educate people on the very thing they are trying to act as if they are standing on solid ground.
Spend three or four years in hellhole and then tell me about the constitution.
What is next? Bringing in the Bible? Claiming divine prophecy?
So how do I reconcile Celeste’s story?
With one word: education and experience.
Utah’s culture is 20–30 years behind the rest of the country when it comes to understanding consent, sexual assault, domestic violence, and trauma. Many Utah men genuinely believe rape must involve physical violence, screaming, or torn clothing. They have no framework for understanding coercion, fear, psychological manipulation, or power imbalance.
They believe a woman must fight.
But they, themselves, would not fight.
Women don’t disclose because they don’t trust the men around them to protect them, believe them, or react safely. And the behavior many have directed at Celeste proves their fear is justified.
Final point
This defense that "the women fell in love with Tim"
You have never had a woman's heart if you believe that shit.
Also, she was in love? Where I am from, we call this "Dirty Mackin". It is when a person tries to sabotage another man, a husband or boyfriend in order to get into her panties. Where I am from, if you want a woman, you get her on your own merits. Look if she is married and whatever, nobody knows her situation behind closed doors, or what she wants to do.
But, for you to desperately have to lie, and try to sabotage it talking down on another is violation civilians on up. How desperate and pathetic. I would never trash another man to get a woman, that would get you beat down. Dirty Mackin. Plus Tim is married and she is married, now it is worse, because you're Dirty Mackin to a girlfriend, then got a friend involved?
If you're taking his wife? You have to bad mouth him? Really? When I was kid, you got a beatdown for this. It's wrong. How desperate and pathetic. See, women don't like that. No wonder your success is so low, you try to get with a woman, by dragging a man down?
If someone does not understand sexual assault, they should say nothing. Ignorance is acceptable, malice is not. Attacking victims because you don’t understand their behavior only reveals your own lack of experience, empathy, and education.
I will continue supporting these women and educating the public.
I cannot pretend any longer that Utah’s cultural attitudes are not part of the problem.