Lots of times when I sit down to write the words don't come. I used to think this was a failure of mine, and it'd reduce me to tears. I'd hear the clicking in the back of my head and mistake it for brain damage, that somehow in the middle of the night, unaware, my body had become like a broken fuselage and I'd severed my ability to access my own subconsciousness. I'd scream at myself. I'd grind my palms into the top of my knees. WRITE. So I'd write. Only for me to stutter out some garbage I'd delete the next morning.
I've come to learn since then that the moments I don't write are just as important as the moments that I do. The most difficult part of a writers job is not putting down one word after the other. It's enduring the quiet, swirling space before the writing, when the words are still becoming, when they are just feelings and colors and images that have not adhered themselves to any coherent shape.
The most important words to write are the ones that are shy to emerge, that hide in soft dens, eyes glittering. The kind of words that require the patience to wait for them, crouched down in the dark, palm open in invitation.