Good excuse to finally talk about things. Where I started and where I am now. > Be me with no clue what I want to do having finished school and always struggled > Forced into Uni by parents and do double degree in Marketing/Psychology > Struggle through it, working twice as hard to achieve the bare minimum but manage to graduate > Work in Marketing for 5 years with no motivation and just aimlessly doing my routine > Discover Vtubers, become a mod in the Hololive Fan discord > Hear about first HoloEN auditions in 2020. Make application with zero experience > Make it through 3 interviews with CoverCorp and get accepted into Wave 1 of HoloStarsEN > Unfortunate corporate bureaucracy cancels first Wave of HoloStarsEN, I’m put on hold but told I’m guaranteed a spot when they finally launch > Motivated by making it so far I start as an indie to get experience before joining HoloStarsEN > Become Goonyella, throw myself into a new and scary world of Vtubing. I never even had a Facebook before let alone a Twitter > Work Fulltime in Marketing while Streaming 5 days a week > Meet lots of cool people and make lots of friends > Meet lots of crazy people and lost lots of friends > Somehow make Twitch partner with support from my friends and community > Best day of my life > 2022 HoloStarEN Wave 1 Auditions open up finally. Go through 3 interview again as a formality with CoverCorp. > Talk about my new venture in Vtubing, how I want to bring Twitch and Youtube audience together and remove the stigma and baseless red vs purple mind set of Holofans. > They did not like that.jpg > Told I will no longer be part of HoloStarsEN Wave 1 > Dreams crushed but I am still privillaged enough to have a full time job and security > Keep streaming 5 days a week, working full time > Make some good choices and steady growth > Make some bad choice and many mistakes > Lose my job > Realise how much of my life I have put on hold, how much I have neglected my friends and families, missed weddings and baby showers to stream > Fall into deep depression for a year and sporadically stream > Take indefinite hiatus from streaming > Try to learn from my mistakes but not getting better > Finally pursue professional help > Get diagnosed with Autisim and ADHD at 31 years old > Get medicated for ADHD > Omg why is everything suddenly so much easier and I am motivated to actually help myself now?! > Trying to come to terms with my diagnosis and not feel like I have wasted my life > Work on myself and do lots of reading and research > Find new job, indefinite hiatus from streaming to focus on it > Excel at new job, keep battling imposter syndrome > Go into first year performance review expecting to be told I need to do better > Get told they think I am extremely capable and promote me to Senior Marketing Manager > Still think I am lucking out, failing upwards and they just don’t notice > Have a cancer scare that luckily turns out to just require some surgery (Crohn’s Disease) > Realise life is too short. > I don't hate my job but I don't like it > I know what I want to do now > Going back to Uni next year and pursuing a Masters of Clinical Psychology > I want to help people like I was

If you go on a date and they are not impressed by your autistic rizz as you rant about Warhammer for 4hrs then they aren’t right for you.

Work on yourself... it takes a lot of work and convincing but it's possible to stop if you align yourself with who you want to be and goals. You start liking yourself when you stop trying to live through someone else's lense.

Rate my fridge.

Normalise spooning your mates at sleepovers, going to the bathroom with your bros for self-care, holding hands at the urinal and kissing your homies.

Even the magpies are struggling in the current economy. Me as a magpie moving back in with my parents at 31.

Holy shit, the dude next to me just picked up a phone call while he’s blasting and now now making a sale on the toilet. I wish I had that level of confidence.

It surprises me that people still come by and show their support for my dumb ass after almost 5 years of streaming. All starting from me being bored and lonely during COVID. It means a lot to me. I ain't doing great mentally or physically atm. Gonna take the rest of the week off to recoup and get some tests.

Happy for everyone that got to have a blast and make unforgettable memories at Offkai! I was too busy with EOFY work but I’ll be at SMASH! and PAX this year and can’t wait to meet some amazing people! Let’s make some great memories too! 💩Also shower and don’t be stinky.

🌟🌟YIPPIE!🌟🌟YIPPIE!🌟🌟 I will be a guest at @smashcon’s VTuber Zone! Make sure to come say hi if you are attending. I would love to see you there and chat! I will be there from: 📅SAT July 12th 4:00pm AEST

Its debut time🍃 Come say hihi, to your new friendly forest Bulbacat 💚 twitch.tv/belbasaura/

[VIRTULANTES x SMASH! ANNOUNCEMENT] [STATUS] Establishing connection with over 40 Vtubers...

💤What’s your wake up routine?💤 Here is mine: -Wake up -Snooze alarm -Second alarm starts -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Third alarm starts -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Fourth alarm starts -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Snooze alarm -Doom scroll in bed

Pabu watching over the lowly peasants (me).

Dude, I am too young to be having lower pack pain.

✨In 7 hours I am going to relive my childhood✨ Its time to educate the younglings on what all the cool kids used to do in the library at lunchtime before we had phones. Gonna start by making a new Neopets account! ❓What was your favorite time wasting browser game as a kid❓

Bit sick and low energy but I must continue to play with my P-Organ in the DLC. ⚔️We just unlocked the Wolverine DLC in Lies of P⚔️ 🔴NOW LIVE🔴

Some of my big shiny cardboard pulls from a box of play boosters. Managed to break even and more with some of these! Was good fun exploring all the cool new Final Fantasy cards. #MTG #MTGxFINALFANTASY

💸Come watch my terrible life choices and nerd out as I open some expensive cardboard Final Fantasy booster packs and regret everything!💸 🫲HAND CAM TIME!🫱 🔴NOW LIVE🔴