Fable 5
From an Unwritten Episode
Mr. Daniel Keogh came up out of the station into the brightness, blinking. Warm for it. The vendor at the corner had mangoes cut in plastic clamshells, lilies wilting in their bucket, yesterday’s lilies. Funeral flowers. Who buys a lily on a Tuesday.
In his pocket the phone purred once against his thigh like a thing asking to be fed. Let it. Whatever it is it was already.
Coffee smell from the open door, burnt edge to it, they let the roast go too long but the girl with the rings knows his order so. Habit is the great anaesthetic, somebody. Creature of. He went in.
— The usual, is it?
— Go on so.
Steam shrieking in the pitcher. She has a way of standing at the machine, hip out, reading something below the counter, thumb going. Everyone reading something below the counter now. The whole city walking around with its head bowed like the Angelus rung and nobody told them it stopped.
He paid by tapping. Tip? the screen asked him, patient, shameless, the three buttons like the three caskets. Choose wisely. Portia in the till. He pressed the middle one as a man does who wishes to be just and unnoticed.
Out again with the cup warming the palm. Molly McGarrigle’s mass card still in the inside pocket, three weeks now, meant to send a line to Tom. Terrible the way you mean to. The dead are very patient correspondents. Never a reproach out of them.
The phone again, twice now, insistent little pulse, somebody’s want. Could be Eileen about the boiler man. Could be nothing dressed as something, the bank pretending to be worried about him, your statement is ready Daniel, ah you’re very good. Everything is ready except yourself.
A gull went over with its annual scream. Same gull two hundred years. Saw Parnell, saw the lockout, sees me with my flat white and my unanswered, all one to him. Birds have no notifications. Wrong: the whole sky is theirs, weather, magnetics, the pull of the south in the blood. First network. Ours is only a poor copy with adverts.
He stood at the kerb while the traffic light counted him down in red numerals, nine, eight. Numbered all our days are but they didn’t used to show you the number. Seven. A girl beside him photographed the street with herself in front of it, smiling at the lens the smile you keep in the same pocket as the phone. The street will be in it looking its best, the morning preserved like fruit, sweeter than it tastes. Six, five. Where do they all go, the mornings. Server farm in a cold country, hum of it, ranks of them like the catacombs, all our faces filed under perpetual light. Resurrection of the body, guaranteed, terms apply.
Walk now, the light said. He walked.
And what was it he’d come out for at all. The chemist’s, was it, or only the being out. The being out, mostly, if he was honest, the want of weather on the face of him. In the pocket the phone went still at last, having said its say to no one, and he felt it go still the way you feel a child fall asleep against you: relief, and the small unaccountable grief.