Toknight was fun. Definitely a core memory for me. It was nice meeting some of yall out there. I hope no one took any offense that I was just hanging out by myself, but I don't really like intruding on other people's groups and shit, I know how annoying that can be and im an awkward sonofabitch already.
Its a challenge for me. After spending so many years in solitude and just keeping to myself, it's hard to break out of that routine. That whole "work, go home, sleep, save, dream about the future" routine where my life is just super focused on that goal. Well, now that I've made that goal, now I have to deal with the other stuff. The mental health stuff and I gotta at least try to live some.
It also wasn't too long ago that some people on this platform were spreading lies about me and the kind of person that I am. So for all I know, im prejudged anyway, so I have my guard up pretty much everywhere. Im trying to learn how to live without it being up all the time. But, it doesn't happen right away. It takes a lot of time.
I didn't move out here for a hockey team, but a hockey team pointed the direction of where my life was gonna go. Im so grateful to be alive after everything and to be here to build a life. I hope it's a good one. I'll see yall out there. GKG