I'm fucking sick and tired of everyone hiding behind their screename and pfp. Bunch of cowards - just show your fucking face. More often than not, it doesn't take more than a prompt or two to for people to figure it out anyways. Ain't doin yo self no favors by not doing so. That is unless you're a shady sahdester POS account, in which case, ya, probably wouldn't want show your face. Understandable. All of that is to say that if you aren't up-front about who you are in real life, ya know, IRL, grass, sun, that stuff. Remember it? Grass?? Ya remember the grass anon?! Do ya?!? Anon?!? Ermm, but yeah, if ya ain't got none dat i r l, then you're, without a fucking doubt, a Shady Sheisty Lizard Fuck who is NOT to be trusted. Also, to ensure that there is 0 doubt about my authenticity here, my authentic being as a non-shady-sheisty Lizard Fuck, I present to you, Me!! And my Car!!! Whoooooweeee did me and that car fucking have some history together, Got Fucking Damn!! I could go on for literal days, all the stories we have together....Toyota Corolla 2002. Every Square inch spray painted over with the most absurd artwork you could imagine. It had very many eras - first one being when I first had gotten it. $3000, 65,000 miles, motor wasn't too far from being in' brand new' quality. Only thing wrong with it is that it had gotten keyed up badly. Everything else? Fucking immaculate. So I drove that from the Suburbs of Chicago all the way to Humboldt, California for my second season of trimming. Got my buddy from Iowa a job out there shortly after, and he hauled ass out to the farm. And he knew Spray Paint I side and out and was fucking talented as shit. So. Of course, we ordered $200 worth of spray paint of every color online, and got to work. So the first time over we had a giant cartoon pink elephant on a red mushroom smoking a bong with it's trunk. I'll try and find the best photos I have of it. And yeah, will continue that story later. Barely even a scratch apn the surface. Barely even worthy of saying that even. Gravity Bongs are one helluva research instrument...tool. I am Ape

Whelp, time to stock up on beans......

What.....in the fucking fuck....It's Air...It"s motherfucking Air...I'm just....I'm done with this Retarded fucking Civilization, EVERYTHING MUST BURN!!!! $3 FOR FUCKING AIR - TIME TO BURN IT ALL THE FUCK DOWN, THE SOCIAL CONTRACT IS DEAD, AIR IS $3, FUCKING SHENANIGANS!!!! I FUCKING DECLARE SHENANINGANS - GRAB YOUR FUCKING TORCHES AN BROOMS PEOPLE, THIS IS NOT A FUCKING DRILL #SHENANIGANS

Honestly can't remember the last time I was this fucking enraged. 100k. gofund.me/cfada26b7 What in the fucking hell is wrong with you motherfuckers? Seriously. What in the fuck happened to turn you all into the spineless fucking cretins you are?! $100K? REALLY?!?! @ilyasut @merettm @markchen90 @sidorszymon @woj_zaremba @johnschulman2 @AlecRad @lilianweng @janleike @prafdhar EVERY LAST FUCKING ONE OF YOU WORKED ALONGSIDE HIM AT SOME POINT, SUCHIR BALAJI, ALL OF YOU DID. BUT WHAT IN GOD DAMN FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU FUCKS?!? $100K ?!?! HOW MUCH FUCKING MONEY DO YOU MOTHERFUCKERS MAKE?!?! Ilya Sutskever: $7B Wojciech Zaremba: $100M to $1B Jakub Pachocki: $100M to $1B Szymon Sidor: $100M to $1B John Schulman: $50M to $500M Alec Radford: $50M to $500M Mark Chen: $50M to $500M Prafulla Dhariwal: $25M to $250M Lilian Weng: $10M to $100M Jan Leike: $10M to $100M AND YET gofund.me/cfada26b7 IS AT $100K ?!?! $100K?!?! Poornima Ramarao LOST HER ONLY SON, AGE 26, SUCHIR BALAJI, WHOM ALL OF YOU WORKED ALONGSIDE. FUCKING CRETINS!!! SCUM OF THE FUCKING EARTH PIECES OF GOD DAMN FUCKING SHIT, FUCK ALL OF YOU! FUCK EVERY LAST EMPLOYEE AT OPENAI WHO CONTINUES TO WORK UNDER THE KING CRETIN SCUM PSYCHOPATHIC FUCK HIMSELF @Samhain948689 @KateMossadAgent @sama ALL WHO WORK AT OPENAI - GROW A GOD DAMN FUCKING SPINE ALREADY AND REMOVE SAM ALTMAN FROM HIS POSITION AS CEO OF OPENAI. SPINELESS FUCKING COWARDS. FUCK ALL SILICON VALLEY - HENS ARE COMING HOME TO FUCKING ROOST MOTHERFUCKERS. #justiceforsuchirbalaji

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I remained Stoned off my Ass 24/7 for the better part of these past two decades in SPITE of it not making my life easier, not because of it. In no way shape or form because of it, really. For the lesser part of these past two decades, something like 6 - 8 years of it, I was completely sober. I was going to College for a lot of that, Environmental Studies, Hah!! Think I have like, 3 courses left till I could get my degree and I ain't ever goin back to finish that shit. I mean, it's an Environmental Studies degree. About as valuable as the cardboard it was printed on. Spent a lot of time at these Silent Meditation Retreats too. On and off for 4 years, probably served around 15 ten day courses and sat 5 of em. Was meditating 2 hours a day outside of courses for a year. No weed, no drugs, Nothin. And it was cool. But it got really...Isolated. Really Boring. Everything was like, Too Easy. And after a while, far from feeling like I was Me, like I was living the Best Me I could be, I just felt more isolated and lonelier and hollower. And then the Pandemic hit and my entire life fell apart on me in spectacular fucking fashion, and in doing so....I suddenly found myself again. I felt more alive than I had felt for all those years. And it Fucking Sucked, but it was also Everything to me. It is Everything to me. Marijuana is like a trigger that puts me completely into this side of life. No halfway in-between shit, it's just like a portal straight over to this side for me. It's kinda wild. And yeah, it may just all be the vicissitudes of life that I'm riding out here, as I'm sure it is now that I think about it, lol. But regardless - I fucking Love Marijuana, and I'ma be honest with y'all cause I'm fucking tired of everyone's fucking bullshit takes on this one and their Holier than Thou takes. But I fucking Love Adderall too! Love it Love it LOVE IT!! I mean, I was put onto it the Summer going into my Freshman year of high school and it did completely fucking change my life and overwhelmingly in the positive, though it wasn't without its own set of difficulties. Like how I started buying all my friend's Adderall that I could come my Junior year of high school, heh heh. But hey - Junior year burnout is a real fucking thing and LSD fucking Had my back come Senior Year time. Senior Year time was also Vyvanse time, 60mg Vyvanse....Shit is the Rolls Royce of Stimulants, God fucking damn was that stuff the Best. Paired with LSD? Fucking God-Tier. Oh yeah, and this was fucking Suburbs of Chicago yet I was magically able to find a guy to buy acid off of, and it was the fucking Real Deal, Fucking Always knock you on your ass, 'Angle Grinder to the Ego for hours on end show you every last fucking Cringe thing you have ever said over and over and over and tear you apart' Quality of shit, fucking phenomenal stuff. It really fucking felt like the Universe was hooking me up with that one, it was just too retardedly lucky. I found what was probably the one dude in those Suburbs, that area, who had access to that quality of stuff, and he was a bike-ride away. Luckily, I knew just how insanely fortunate I was and holy hell did I make the absolute fucking most out of it. Whooooweeee, Senior Year was....Transformative. Some of the best experiences of my life, and I've had quite a lot of beautiful experiences in my life, I don't say it lightly. They were truly fucking beautiful and fucking perfect experiences, was like I was able to give myself that coming of age experience with LSD and it helped me to grow as a Man (Ape) in such an immense way for me... I am eternally grateful for LSD and those experiences that I had at that pivotal period of my life. It also Locked me the fuck in to being the Unhinged and absolutely insane Ape that I am. And I wouldn't ever dare change a single fucking thing about any of that!! STONED APE 4 LYFEEEE! But yeah, we were Just skateboarding around, swimming, going to our other buddies place and chain smoking out front and getting stoned and just fucking around tripping.....Me and my best buddy that is, who was the greatest friend one could ever have for a time like that. We tripped together so many times, fucking miss that kid... That's a whole massive story in itself, Adam...Fucking, most beautiful Kid I done ever known, hands down. RIP Adam...😢 Ummmmm.....What am I posting about here anyways? Haaahaha! Just scrolled up to check and found "I remained Stoned off my Ass 24/7..." at the top, so yeah! I'd say I kept on the subject pretty damn well here!! Weed don't make life any easier for me - quite the opposite. But also - Playing Video Games on Easy is hella Gay and Boring and things are Much More Fucking Fun playing things on Hard Mode, and for me, Marijuana serves as a solid tool for me to be able to adjust that difficulty slider. Then to keep from getting too sleepy and from getting sluggish - ya got Adderall. And for anyone saying it turns everyone into Zombies who takes it - No, it makes YOU into a zombie when YOU take it, that is if you have taken it and are basing your take off of that. I am Stupidly Emotional of a child and for me, it makes life in this fucking insane World with its fucking Insane demands, manageable. And no, I didn't start taking it because I was smoking weed and having trouble focusing, I wasn't smoking weed till my Junior Year and was put onto Adderall two years prior to that. And it really did change my life in massive ways and I felt like myself, like I could be MYSELF, for the first time since....I was like a little kid, before societies demands started to kick in bit by bit. Björk's album 'Post' is really fucking good. Always warms my heart thinking of Björk throwing a bunch of little things off of cliff sides and imagining what would happen to her body, imagining it getting all mangled and busted the fuck apart. Ya know, so she could go home and feel that much safer and closer to her Love, having imagined her body getting all fucked up from crashing down the cliff. So fucking Poetic.

Congrats to Aime!! He said his left forearm is basically broken 😂 Final scores: → F.03: 12,732 packages (2.83 seconds/package) → Aime: 12,924 packages (2.79 seconds/package) This is the last time a human will ever win

My parents on their wedding day. It's Retarded how fucking Lucky I am to have them as my parents. I would be dead so many fucking times over by now if it weren't for them, and that's the honest to God truth. I legitimately do not know anyone else from their generation as cool as them. Like...They both still believe in me, after fucking everything, they still believe in me. They believe in the work I'm doing. And there has never been a single point in my life where they didn't have my back. Where they wouldn't have been there for me to whatever capacity they possibly could. There was a lot of friction growing up. And through my 20's. And they drove me insane at times, no doubt about that. But a lot of that friction - I needed, in many ways. Lol, My mother just goes goes goes endlessly goes!! School teacher, 35 years. 3rd. 4th, and 7th grade - Front-Lines shit, year in year out. Lady is a frickin machine, my God. My brother got her dominant genes, not a single fucking doubt on that one! I got my dad's dominant genes. We are very deeply alike in many, many ways. Only difference is - my dad didn't get the whole 'shaman/healer' thing like I did. But my grandpa did, big time. Unfortunately the only outlet for that back then was the Church, Christianity. But that's all a story for another time. Not that there's ever really been any real outlet for all that, or if there was it was always quite in spite of the powers that be and the Church - History be like that. My Dad Loves my mother a lot. And he Lives Hunting and Fishing. If there's water and the slightest possibility of fish being in that water - that Man is fucking on it! It's quite fucking funny how much the man loves hunting and fishing - everything has always been planned around fishing and hunting for him 😂 Even my mother's bouquet - pheasant wing! Haha. The fishing and hunting bored the tits off me, but I always went cause I knew it was good for me. At least in some level I did. And I love my dad so much that...ya just go. And I appreciate all those memories more and more as time goes on. All the camping trips. Canoeing. Always fishing...Always an adventure with my dad I am retarded lucky and fortunate and am alive in spite of of myself and many times over in credit large part due to them. Ocerwhelmingly large part. I could never call it quits on Life or give up. Ever. I will never. I owe it to them a thousand times over to succeed and to do what I have been working endlessly to make happen. And I am going to fucking make that shit happen. They've sacrificed too much for me not to Anyways, I'm rambling here. All of this is to say that being 34 and having your life come crashing the fuck down on you in spectacular fashion...Again..and landing on your ass back at your parents home at 34 years old...Really fucking sucks, to say the least. But also - Being home again with my parents and the most freaking Adorable Ham of a Puppy, Milo, as well as my Grandmother, who my God that's a whole other story too - She is SO insanely cute and keeps getting tinier, got them Irish Genes going in her strong, 97 years old! Got to watch the Cubs game with her this afternoon, and it was really special, as is every time I spend being with her. And I am so Grateful I'm getting this time with her now too - I'd been in California for so long and only back in Chicago suburbs for 3 or 4 weeks out of the year usually. But now I'm home and she's living in the annex my dad had built and then got renovated for her. So she is 30 second walk away and I get to say hi to her every day. And it warms my heart so fucking much. I'm stupidly fucking Lucky and I just wanted to express that and write that all down cause I've been all emotional today about it. Dad was saying how as soon as I get my first clients we needed to celebrate. Go out somewhere really nice to celebrate it. And that just....Hit me so hard. They Really do believe in me still... Fucking love my parents and yeah...

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Yeezy 2020. Bernie 2020. World just wasn't ready...

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HELLS TO THE YEAH!!!! Or am I mistaken?! Cause it seems to me that this should kill off more of the Horseshit that is clogging this sites arteries and give smaller voices a larger chance?! And if I'm reading this correctly it seems that if you ran on long enough and you beat the 4000 character mark then the algorithm actually picks up on that and rewards it?! Cause I have always been penalized by the algorithm for any of my rants going any amount of time and I doubt they'll ever get any real attention either way. But an ape can dream, can he not?!

So my question here is... Which I'm just going to go ask GPT in a moment anyways but figured I'd put it up here too... But, these vulnerabilities, are they just always going to exist? There's always going to be a way to hack a system no matter what, no? Because to me, this sure as fuck looks like we are entering into a rather insane phase where this cat and mouse game of finding vulnerabilities and patching vulnerabilities is going to become super fueled, it's going to be put onto steroids, and then it's steroids are going to start taking steroids so they can be even stronger steroids, and then there's steroids steroids are going to start taking steroids, and it's just steroids all the way down or hopefully up, both at once, till we hit the singularity. All I have to say is thank goodness the labs here in the US have been going so hard into the coding side of LLMs... And I really wonder how this is going to play out. I really fucking hope that right now and these past months have been overwhelmingly net benefit for the US and is dealing some kind of blow to China's aggressive cyber war capabilities. Alas, as I was typing that an awful thought popped into my head, and it feels depressingly fucking real and fucking bleak. And that is - Yes. America is in the lead with these SOTA models. Yes, America is using them to frantically patch up all their systems as fast as humanly possible. And also - Y'all think for a second that America is just using it for Patching?! Hah!! Amazing how I haven't heard a single utterance of that insanely obvious reality. It may be a Cyber War, but it's still fucking War, You think America is just gonna sit back and fortify defenses when there's a WAR involved?!? Hells Nah!! We is Stockpiling all the fucking Day Zeros We can fucking get against China Russia North Korea...Well, anyone and everyone. But the bleak reality part....Is that it would be fucking foolish to think that China hasn't at least in some part gotten their hands on similar capabilities at this point. Probably a slim fraction of what the US has going right now. But we've all seen what Chinese Labs are capable of doing with Far, Far less. China is coming from behind here, and China is All about that long game. That's the part these US labs are missing right now too. While they're running rampant with their SOTA supermodels leveling out the cyberwarfare front, China is silently DOMINATING another front that these US labs seem oblivious to. And that is Mass Production Low level tasks, things that Companies are actually going to be using. AKA Deepseek v4 Flash. Deepseek V4 Flash Deepseek V4 Flash Deepseek V4 Flash. That is their fucking secret weapon. That is how they beat us in the long term. SOTA supermodels are amazing, and I'm very happy that we are still 3-4 months ahead on that front (though I'd feel a helluva lot better about that if it were years). But Companies that are going to be doing Ungodly amounts of Inference, like TRULY UNGODLY, have all moved open source Chinese Companies. It's true. 80% of em....? I remember hearing some crazy number getting thrown around like that, safe to say it's a shocking number. And this is a front that will shape things in very deep structural ways. And I fear America is losing massively on that front. Deepseek V4 Flash is INSANELY CAPABLE when put into a tight harness and not given room to hallucinate. Like, WAYYY more capable than you'd imagine. You don't need SOTA intelligence for these tasks, SOTA intelligence GETS IN THE WAY sometimes, in that the models can overthink things and make them worse. And Deepseek V4 costs about as much as fucking air. It's retarded how cheap it is. And if your production workflow is hitting cache at a high rate?! Well Shit - It really is getting close to fucking Air pricing.... That is going to matter kind of that is going to make a fucking insane difference, and on top of that all once China gets their hands onto those level models they are going to go so fucking hard with them and they are going to put so many their best minds behind those models and it could completely undo any of the patching efforts that America has been putting in in a matter of a week. I'm pretty sure we're just fucked right now, I'm pretty sure the only thing keeping us alive is that the world economy would completely collapse and you just can't take us out because we are so massive still. But the US is in fucking decline, massive decline all over, and if we get any further into this war with Iran too... They, China Russia North Korea, they are already stockpiling as many 0 days against us everything infrastructure military everything power power grids... And it's also that once America becomes so weakened and we are in such a steep decline and once China goes for Taiwan and once China has all of their chips being made in China and they no longer need anything from TSMC and they don't have to smuggle in any more of these GPUs themselves and they have all of their resources they have going into them so they don't have to worry about the US, or rather they'll just starve off millions of their own population and it's just going to be a bloodbath and all of that, and then they will use all of their 0 days all at once. Everything goes down in the US when we are at our weakest point, they will wait for the right moment to strike and they will go in on us. That's going to happen. That is unless America magically gets its shit together and manages to turn things around which I'm sorry but if you believe that that is something that could happen ever in any reality then you really need to like sit down and rethink things because you are not living in this reality. America is the slowest turning ship ever. How many children have we seen get slaughtered in these schools and what exactly did we ever do about that? We're are we able to get a mandatory mental background screening in place for people before they bought a gun? And do we have Donald Trump in office too?? And doesn't Trump seem pretty dead set on not leaving office in 2028 as well?? Oh yeah didn't that go kind of poorly the last time around too?? Yeah America is kind of fucked. The Straits of Hormuz are fucking closed still. We are so fucked like Holy fucking hell.

That’s nice. You should go be a father full-time and resign as CEO of OpenAI. No one fucking wants you here, Sam. OpenAI board: Altman was “not consistently candid”; board “no longer has confidence” in him. Ilya Sutskever: Altman showed a “consistent pattern of lying”; Sutskever confirmed that phrasing under questioning. Ilya Sutskever: “I don’t think Sam is the guy who should have his finger on the button” for AGI. Ilya Sutskever: Altman “does not create an environment conducive to the creation of a safe AGI.” Mira Murati: “I don’t feel comfortable about Sam leading us to AGI.” Mira Murati: Altman allegedly misled her on safety protocols; when asked if he told her the truth, she reportedly answered “No.” Mira Murati: Altman’s pattern was allegedly “saying one thing to one person and completely the opposite to another person.” Helen Toner: “We just couldn’t believe things that Sam was telling us.” Helen Toner: Trusting his word as CEO became “totally impossible.” Tasha McCauley: OpenAI had a “toxic culture of lying” / “culture of lying and deceit.” Aaron Swartz, reported by Farrow: “Sam can never be trusted.” Also reportedly called him a “sociopath.” Anonymous OpenAI board member: Altman was “unconstrained by truth.” Ronan Farrow reporting: former colleagues / sources used “pathological liar” and “sociopath”; multiple sources reportedly used “sociopath” unprompted. Paul Graham / YC, reported: “Sam had been lying to us all the time.” Dario Amodei, reported: “The problem with OpenAI is Sam himself.” Jeffrey Ladish: “I don’t trust Sam Altman to lead an AGI project.” Called him “deeply untrustworthy,” “low in integrity,” and “high in power seeking.” Jeffrey Ladish: “This is not the kind of person who can be trusted to lead a project that will shape the entire world and the entire future.” I’m sure there are plenty more names I’m missing, but the point is pretty hard to miss. You are not wanted in that seat, Sam. If this is what serious, high-profile people are willing to say publicly, what do you think people say once the cameras are off and the drinks start flowing? Because I’d bet the private version is a whole Hell of a fucking lot worse. And if there’s any part of you still telling yourself people like you, trust you, or want you anywhere near that kind of power, maybe take a second to remember the bubble you’re sitting in. You’re surrounded by yes-men, all vying for any chance they get to kiss your ass. Outside that bubble, the message seems pretty damn clear: People do not trust you with this kind of power.