Lately I get panic attacks during & after I finish sharing news of the Israeli Genocide on my people. I get sick to my stomach & I try to calm myself, which is hard since I'm alone in Jordan. My people are in Hell & I'm witnessing it on my phone from the safety of my apartment. I can't comprehend that humans can be so monstrous & evil. I can't believe no one can/wants to stop Israel's holocaust on my Palestinian people in Gaza. I can't imagine how horrifying it is to literally be abandoned by the world in your colonizers' extermination camp, an actual Hell.
I rarely want to leave the house. Im filled with so much rage & sadness. I don't know what to do to make the Genocide stop. If I could start a one-woman revolution, I would! All these thoughts & feelings, constantly worrying about my people. My head hurts all the time. All I see are images of mass graves & my martyred people's bodies, and I wish the whole world would burn. Allah have Mercy on my people. My mental health is horrible, my survivor's guilt so bad I pray every day to be in Gaza to die with them. I think many Palestinians outside Gaza feel guilty to be alive. This existence is horrifying & extremely traumatizing. Please make the Genocide end ๐๐๐
This beautiful artwork is by the recently martyred Palestinian artist Heba Zagout from Gaza, she was murdered along with 2 of her 4 children in an Israeli airstrike on their home, may Allah have Mercy on their souls ๐๐๐