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#Pride month; for Catholics, June is the Sacred Heart of Jesus month.
This matters to me deeply.
Why?
Because I know how it feels to be a slave to the world’s agenda while insisting that I was free. I remember feeling deeply convinced of this pride narrative about myself, and I lived in that narrative my entire life.
I started having same-sex attraction as young as third grade. I grew up, came out of the closet, and lived as a lesbian for almost 15 years, until I decided to identify as a trans male. I even changed my name to Roman.
The hardest part of living this experience, internally, is that you experience yourself as something you aren’t. But you don’t know that.
You don’t simply make a choice to feel same-sex attraction. You just feel it. And because you just feel it, you don’t question it.
I would have never in a million years believed that there was a God, and that He would completely uproot the self narrative that I had once internally experienced as true about myself.
After all, who could know me better than I know myself?
I lived in a world that constantly mirrored back to me that my feelings and internal experience of myself, attractions, and desires were normal and good.
Quickly, this idea of good was affirmed to me by the world because it was connected to this word called love.
And that’s the difficult part for people caught in the LGBTQ lifestyle to understand. In their hearts, they connect their attractions to their understanding of love.
The human person was made by Love Himself. We are made to be loved and to give love. That’s why this is one of the most manipulative lies the devil has ever sold the human heart.
But what Christ helped me see was that love and desire become corrupt very quickly without proper order.
If you would have told me that one day I would no longer feel same-sex attraction, I would have actually laughed in your face. I would have believed that it was impossible.
And people who identify as LGBTQ believe this too.
Why?
Because they don’t know the Sacred Heart of Jesus.
Christ is not just a person who gives life, who speaks truth, who gives love. He is Life. He is Truth. And He is LOVE.
I had an encounter with the real Christ at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass in 2023. In that encounter, I felt a love so total, so intense, so undeniable, that it brought me to my knees.
I realized instantly that I didn’t know anything about love, and in that realization, I had to concede that maybe, also, I didn’t know anything about myself.
Every way in which I had previously experienced myself internally had to be rigorously brought into the light of Christ.
It was terrifying.
But after feeling that level of love, I had no choice but to chase after Him. I knew for the first time in my life, that whatever that was, it was what I was made for.
Every previous longing of my heart collapsed in importance. It’s not that I didn’t have those other longings still. I did.
But the love Christ showed me, now took the highest place in my chase for fulfillment.
I knew, for the first time in my life, that if I could only touch the hem of His garment, then just maybe I could, for the first time in my life, be fully known and fully loved.
I was right.
To be fully known and fully loved restores the human person and their dignity in ways that would shock the world to its knees.
Just like the Gospel tore down the pagan altars of the ancient world, so too did it tear down the altars of self within me.
You think you know who you are until you stand bare before the One who made you.
You will tremble in the presence of that.
It will change you.
❤️🔥
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