My dear Tomodachis,
I'm sick with fever again, I was supposed to stream today to celebrate my 2 year anniversary since I started streaming.
I donโt even know where to begin. Looking back.. itโs been a journey I never could have imagined.
It started hard. Right after my debut, I had to have a tumor removed - twice. Recovery was slow, and I couldnโt perform the way I wanted to. I felt like I was letting you down before I even started. On top of that, Iโve been fighting my own battles with depression and a neurological condition called RLS, which makes resting a struggle. Even now, keeping healthy and gaining weight is a daily challenge.
The list goes on which makes streaming regularly very hard and I sometimes have to cancel last minute due to my autoinflammatory disease, which is your body's "first responder" immune system malfunctions. Like an overzealous bodyguard, it goes on the offensive without a real threat. Instead of fighting a virus or bacteria, it triggers continuous, damaging inflammation that mistakenly targets your own healthy joints, skin, or organs.
- Unexplained, recurring fevers.
- Painful, swollen joints.
- Abdominal or chest pain.
However, then, last year, came the hardest news. My mom was diagnosed with cancer. We still donโt know what the future holds, and Iโm terrified. I lost my dad when I was young, and the thought of losing her.. itโs a fear that sits with me every day.
But in all of this darkness, you - this community - have been my light.
Your messages, your support during streams, your simple presence in chat.. youโve given me a strength I didnโt know I had. Because of you, I became a Twitch Partner, even streaming just twice a week. You believed in me when I struggled to believe in myself.
I want you to know: I am not giving up. I am going to keep fighting. Iโve been working tirelessly on a big new project - my 2.0 VTuber debut, coming early June. Itโs a fresh start, a new me, and I poured my heart into making it for you.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for believing in this little guy. Thank you for being my reason to keep going. Hereโs to the next chapter - together.
Thank you! ๐ฉต