I've been thinking about remaking Ze Pug Godz in Valorant as a coach. With the right players (aim gods) I am confident I can give 5 people their dream of going pro. if you're someone consistently in the top 100, and are interested, send me a DM linking your tracker.gg.

Some things i wish someone told me when i was competing: the 11-11 clutch isn't lost in the moment. it's lost in every small decision nobody counted before it. your brain doesn't signal danger because you're in danger. it signals danger because the feeling is uncomfortable. those are different things. we blame the one round that hurt the most and forget the 2v2 someone threw, the strategy nobody believed in, the three players who were already dysregulated and couldn't aim straight. when you're overstimulated you don't think "i'm overstimulated." you think "my teammates are the problem." a sigh. a pause. silence. we turn ambiguous cues into rejection in real time — and online it hits twice as hard because tone doesn't exist. some players peak with full structure. some peak with full autonomy. if nobody maps this the team is just guessing. if a player is bored, hesitates, or lacks confidence — that's not a character flaw. it's a signal the environment isn't matching the player. i lost my ability to just go crazy on a team. not because i got worse. because nobody named what i was good at. "i don't know what to do" is solvable. fear and blame are not. but the ego won't let you say it — so it externalizes or collapses inward instead. the mouse feeling off is anxiety looking for something to fix. the mouse was never the problem. cold legs. tingly hands. feelings in the body aren't verdicts. they're just your nervous system doing its job and nobody taught us how to respond to them. confidence that depends on how you feel that day isn't confidence. it's a good day. playing a weaker opponent and overswinging, playing a stronger opponent and giving up — both are the same problem. your performance is riding on your feelings instead of your craft. there is a second game being played inside every match. alongside the tactical game every player is running a game against their own mind. the mental game is a game within the game. most players never even know they're playing it.

As someone with professional gaming experience, a recently acquired psychology degree, and actively pursuing a master's degree in forensic psychology, I'd like to offer a unique perspective and help teams/players with their mental health/performance in the tier 1/tier 2 scene (CS or VAL). I am just a guy who used to be very addicted to video games, has a ton of empathy for this community, and learned ways to live a healthier lifestyle. My dream is to be the person I wish I had been during my gaming career, and help others navigate the mental pitfalls I have personally experienced. If any teams/players are curious about what I have to offer, feel free to send me a DM.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed, struggling with chronic depression, or dealing with difficult emotions after queuing ranked, and you’re open to sharing your story, please DM me. I’d love to listen and support you.

I needed to hear this today. In today's world it's easy to forget what life is really about. Sometimes we need a simple reminder to take a step back from not feeling good enough, to stop the cycle of "optimizing" ourselves every day. youtu.be/_ZPBGv2BG6U?si=NL4y…

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