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The sun that this kind of high quality woman eventually orbits around is, broadly, the consequences of fertility.
“True love” “adventure, intelligence, beauty”
Ok, fleshing this out.
True love isn’t superficial. Shes open to a high degree of self-exposure and vulnerability because she trusts your desire for her. How this relates to fertility: artificial birth control limits exposure and vulnerability. Ppl can say preference this or planning that, but saying it isn’t proving that one is vulnerable; it’s excusing why a person is not vulnerable.
So it’s true love and it’s adventurous. How this relates to fertility. “Why not? Why shouldn’t I throw caution to the wind and go on an adventure that will change who I am? Pour the wine, I’ll be right back.”
This is an adventurous woman that true love can marvel at. Soon enough, baby on board.
But what if she discovers a defect in herself? What if she miscarries? Frequently? What if she never conceives? What does this do to a vulnerable, exposed, adventurer? Her essential feminine quality - one that she essentially gave to you - doesn’t work?
She’ll be grieved. Adventure will recede, and very understandably (to any man). True love will take a different shape - her personality might shift to a register of apology. She might exude a chastened boldness. And somehow, again, fertility (or infertility) bends the arc of the connection you have with her.
Or suppose she has children. Gets sick a few times, has some birth stories to tell, invests months, years, into gestation, falls off the social calendars bc she’s covered in baby gear, doctor appointments, grocery runs, household chores, child training manuals instead of Schopenhauer. This is loyalty and self-giving, still. It’s very real and must be seen as real love and not as a deviation from it.
Again, the shape of your adventure arcs because of fertility.
The endpoint, whether it’s narcissus or goldmund, so to speak, is the same: the best woman will have her relationship altered and multiplied because of deep love. Her self-giving will always be deeply moved by fertility and the consequences of it. And the man will always, in a sense, lose the connection he started with. Her loyalties , because of her primary loyalty to the man, multiply and reshape into concerns that all stem from him.
Jacob wrestled with the angel. As far as adventures go, it’s virtually unimaginable. And after that adventure, Jacob walked with a limp- a constant witness to the glory he enjoyed for a night.
There is no such thing as a lifelong true love to an adventurous, beautiful and intelligent woman, unless you remember that the reality of fertility will overtake her vulnerability, self-exposure, and then, her attention and vigor. This is good because without it, you know the love was never really true.
I went to a wedding for a "trad" couple a few years ago, and asked several married men for advice on finding a good wife.
Most answers were variations on "It doesn't really matter, just marry someone who shares your religious views and wants to have kids."
I have never been able to accept this. I want true love with a beautiful, intellectual, adventurous woman and accepting less is anathema.