I’ve evolved a lot. I was a pragmatic neoliberal in 2014. I liked free markets, meritocracy, tech, globalism. Thought Obama was doing an okay job. Was a bit worried about AI, a bit worried about Woke, a bit worried about the global poor. I learned about EA in 2015ish, liked what I heard, but I recall that my favorite presidential candidate in 2016 was John Kasich. I liked America because it was a place where people could make their own choices and with brains and grit one could have a lot of impact and make a lot of money. I wanted to work hard and be clever and make a lot of money.
2016 I thought Trump was gross and morally broken. Woke was getting bigger though and I also didn’t like that. I was also very ambitious, and was upset with a college admissions process I saw as classist and racist (I didn’t get in anywhere very good). Most cleanly describable as a SSC-classical-liberal-semi-republican. But repulsed by Trump.
As Trump went on it mostly seemed like he was full of hot air. A passing blip. But woke was rising. I found the obsession with equality of outcome, and the increasingly overt anti-white anti-male politics, to be worrisome. I thought they were wrong about important facts about the world and many seemed not to care about what was true. James Damore getting fired upset me a lot. I went further Right, but still never would have supported Trump. That was my red line.
In 2020 I supported Biden reluctantly. I had graduated college and was working at a trading firm. I didn’t want another four years of Trump and thought Biden would bring a steady hand to COVID.
Biden admin for me was a huge mixed bag. On the one hand: I thought the fiscal response to COVID was excellent, and I thought a lot of the small random policies - such as IRS DirectFile - were good. On the other hand, the admin’s approach to crypto and equity politics struck me as authoritarian. Woke was reaching a fever pitch and while there were kernels of truth in the ideology, it seemed overall false in totality and with the potential to destroy what I cared about (meritocracy, truth, freedom of thought and conscience).
I also became substantially more disillusioned with EA in the wake of the FTX fallout. Stopped donating mostly, started eating pork again a year or two later. This was peak rightism for me.
AI also became a big deal in early 2023, and I started worrying about job loss / power concentration.
Trump 2025 hits and it becomes clear to me that there’s a faction in America that is done with liberalism and done with neutral principles of fairness. That faction is also in charge. Punish enemies, reward friends, use power to further grab power. There’s also an underlying cruelty to it - a love of dominance and hierarchy for the sake of those things - that I didn’t sense during the years of woke overreach. I’ve been in group chats where people are clearly just motivated by the most vile ressentiment. Government websites posting videos of ICE operations set to Sabrina Carpenter music. I find this demonic in a way that is hard to articulate verbally. I don’t feel like the 20-something Groypers staffing federal agencies are a part of my civic tradition.
With AI the most powerful it’s ever been, the risk of a permanent lock on power is greater than it’s ever been. It grows greater every year. At the same time, the foundational thing that always pulled me away from the left - a believe in the inherent value and primacy of individual effort and intellect - is likely not long for this world. If we build machines that solve problems better than any human can, I can’t justify humans having power over other humans, nor can I justify other forms of inequality.
So I think humanist center left ideology is most robustly morally correct in the present moment. At the same time, I think the modern right is the most cynical and dominance seeking its ever been. Didn’t come to this set of views easily.