for some time now i run mostly on blank mode
its like being empty of dreaming things up
its actually quite a dull expierience
quiet
more silence
more focus
nothing really happens
everything is matter of fact
i am calm in that reality
and highly attractive
bc unattached
i just noticed it that my charisma appears to be heightened
i noticed that by other people’s reactions
me? i’m just muh. doing my things. smiles. back to work. back to hobby. back to gf. back to what do i want now. then stack little wins to check off.
momentum is rising but i remain calm
more centered in me and what we’re we supposed to do to get want? ah yes need to do xyz. workbee.
at work they call me a workaholic. but i just like what i do. and just do it. more reps.
very in me. very relaxed but “intense” on the outside. relaxed in relationships but due to being focussed at working on small wins of my wants i look intense
though i’m calm
tired but calm
"What's the benefit of shutting the mind off?"
First you asked how to differentiate mind talks from no mind talks.
Look at a wall and realize the wall is not trying to make you feel anything.
There - hear the silence. Distend on it.
"OK but what is this useful for"
That's the mind talking again.
That's the prison.
"What are the benefits of being free"
You don't see the benefits yet when you're counting prison coins, making knives, thinking of scheduled maintenance and prison power games.
The benefit is freedom.
The game opens.
"But I don't see that"
You're not trying and also you're incapable of.
You're trying to imagine it. Then the same machine that creates it, rejects it.
Skip the machine.
Find what's there.
"But that's odd"
It's not permanent. You can go back inside.
Put yourself out. And see.