Troublemaking & bobcat training (training to become one). Weekly essay on The Fluent Self. She or they. Black lives matter. End border patrol.

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Pretty sure runner's high is just Stockholm syndrome, except the person who has kidnapped and tortured you is you.
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wasn’t feeling brave enough for new years wishes so took the roundabout playful back way into learning about what I want, care about, hope for & crave, wrote about apples & laundry day & Tatterdemalion Life fluentself.com/blog/stuff/an…
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also the number of emails I have is maybe a million?? so doing 20 minutes of VANQUISHING ops / low hanging fruit / Make The Number Go Down
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(anyone is welcome to also do this and keep me company)
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Kind of a brutal week and the energy is MOLASSES, but I did some entry for solstice and thought about the things that help, and how to do/have more of them in my life Wrote about that, ritual, the vulnerability of trust, some deep dark winter wishes fluentself.com/blog/stuff/so…
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also featuring some thoughts on teetering and striding (both are interesting), and what else is there in the terrain of heartache beyond the chasm of anxiety and the pits of despair gonna have to start doing some map-making but what if that is also interesting!
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Talk pie-based freedom celebrations to me, and other wishes! I did a review & some journaling about getting through a Known Hard Week / Holiday, what worked vs what I might like to do differently next time, and also wrote some Very Personal Ads fluentself.com/blog/personal…
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this is the stuff that really gets to me: sure it didn’t kill me but I did spend much of two years in bed, regularly run out of energy doing small things, and can’t survive like this so actually it’s not a function of numbers of death?
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My yearly appointment with doctor at work. Her: I see you still wear your mask? Me: yes Her: you know Covid almost doesn’t kill anymore? Me: so prevention is just about avoiding death or also about avoiding chronic conditions impacting quality of life? … That was a good start…
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wrote about my oddly specific holiday depression & seasonal angst, about my imaginary test kitchen for alternative feast days, processed a Big Feeling, talked to the cowboy in my head, and made a list of what I do when it feels like I can’t do anything fluentself.com/blog/personal…
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sounds like a lot but it all fits haha what we are in trying times also there are puns
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Havi same handle at the blue place retweeted
you can leave twitter but you can't leave social media even if you wanted to. you've used it for so long you no longer have interiority. you only have posting, you'll always come back
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wrote about being in the reeling times - both in that everything is reeling, and that I am reeling in the mystery, in the sense of whirling but also the sense of fishing… tried to conjure some wisdom for all the reeling
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both/and, etc come visit the museum also giving out Emergency Calming Techniques
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Havi same handle at the blue place retweeted
the only thought I have about the election is that a lot of people worship power the more nakedly aggressive it is, the more they fawn, the more they identify with it in the hope of finding safety in its shadow, or experiencing some vicarious thrill they'd otherwise never attain
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Okay, these are challenge days (understatement!), I wrote about the process of recalibrating towards and for a challenge and the many challenges to come And also about some challenges we can *choose* along with the ones we are being dealt. fluentself.com/blog/personal…
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Havi same handle at the blue place retweeted
5 Nov 2024
very few whales are legally allowed to vote, so please, for the love of god, go vote for them
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We are taking some election day breaths, and doing whatever helps, and acknowledging that the vibes are yikes and that none of this is fun. Also: gelato, a little hedonism at the end of the world, and nourishment for the collective fluentself.com/blog/personal…
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And a cool pic of the wild sky above my friend’s house
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safety & sanctuary spells / wishes for scary times, this is my 3am can’t-sleep too-much-anxiety calming practice, wrote about this and some personal stuff because the 3am anxiety lately is really something fluentself.com/blog/personal…
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