Sometimes Israelās crimes are so horrific that at first you donāt even understand what youāre looking at. You just stare at it trying to make sense of what youāre seeing for a bit, like you would if you suddenly saw a space alien or a leprechaun or something.
It happened to me yesterday when I was watching a Sky News report about a teenage boy who was shot by Israeli forces in Jerusalem for celebrating the release of Palestinian prisoners in the hostage negotiations with Hamas. I was watching it thinking to myself, I must be misunderstanding what Iām looking at. I know that Israel does gross things, but surely the story here isnāt that they shot a kid for being happy about something.
Then, as has happened so many times over the last two months, I kept watching and learned that yes, that is indeed what happened. The deputy mayor of Jerusalem Fleur Hassan-Nahoum is seen defending the shooting by saying āpart of the deal is that there would be no celebrations for the release of attempted murderersā (this was actually not a part of the deal, it was just a decree issued by Israelās national security minister) and claiming dishonestly that āweāre talking about the release of attempted murderersā (the vast majority have not been convicted of any crime and have been denied any due process for the accusations against them).
The band Eve6 nicely summed up what it felt like watching the clip of the deputy mayorās comments, tweeting, āThe remarkable thing about this clip is her self assurance. Like sheās supremely confident that āwe shot the teenager because he was celebratingā is a thing that people will find reasonable.ā
I had the same experience reading about the five premature babies who were left to die after the IDF raided al-Nasr Pediatric Hospital in Gaza earlier this month, their decomposing bodies only discovered when the temporary ceasefire allowed access to the hospital. Itās just too insane to believe ā they attacked a pediatric hospital? And then they left the babies there to die? What??
The only reason weāre learning about this now is because the pause in fighting allowed journalists to get cameras into the building and show the dead infants to the world. This calls to mind the Politico report immediately prior to the ceasefire which said that the White House was worried āan unintended consequence of the pauseā would be āthat it would allow journalists broader access to Gaza and the opportunity to further illuminate the devastation there and turn public opinion on Israel.ā
Indeed, since the pause in fighting began the world has been receiving drone footage from mainstream platforms like Reuters and The Washington Post revealing vast expanses of urban terrain completely destroyed by a blanket of Israeli military explosives spanning from city block to city block. Looking at the blatantly indiscriminate devastation thatās been caused by Israelās assault on Gaza since October 7 makes it clear that the IDF are not targeting Hamas but Gaza itself.
Iāve been amazed at how much Iāve been sleeping since the ceasefire started; thatās why I havenāt been writing as much. I guess spending weeks staring at unbelievable horrors unfolding on your screen can be pretty hard on your system if youāre sensitive to that sort of thing, so my bodyās been resting up as much as it can while thereās an opportunity.
And Iām just here watching this all unfold safely from my home in Melbourne. I cannot imagine what itās like to be living in the midst of this horror for the last two months, trying to figure out the best way to survive while also grieving the family, friends and neighbors youāre losing along the way. These people have all been deeply traumatized in ways that will haunt them for the rest of their lives, if they survive the violence, disease and deprivation thatās to come.
This thing is so astonishingly ugly, and it could get a whole lot uglier after the ceasefire ends. If thereās anything positive to be found in this living nightmare, itās that itās so earth-shakingly ugly that it just might shake the world awake.