that time i got to meet katie leung at the arcane finale and show her my cosplay 🥹 #arcane #cosplay

It takes a LOT of work and effort, but here are some of the ways ive managed to combat this, which has worked for both RSD and BPD. This is alongside DBT and medication. - utterly refusing to use negative self talk. Not just when you’re experiencing RSD, but at any time ever. One of the biggest forms of RSD is extreme shame and self hatred. When negative self talk starts, i will physically out loud or mentally say “nope, we arent doing that anymore!” and replacing it with gentle self love. I do this by imagining that instead of talking to me right now, i’m talking to me as the very small young little kid who is scared after messing up. It’s okay sweetheart, it was an accident. Let’s clean it up together, i love you 💕 - taking deliberate time to calm my emotions when they start building. Saying “i need to remove myself from this situation”, going to a place i can be alone for a moment, and taking deep breaths and focusing on slowing down my heart rate. - reminding myself that it is mental illness. The things i feel, the extreme anger and shame and humiliation and self hatred, im not feeling those because i deserve it or because thats whats supposed to happen. Im feeling that because the chemicals and wires in my brain are misfiring. It is something that can be managed and calmed. It is not my permanent state, and it is something that i can overcome. Its taken me years to get to a point where i feel i can manage these emotions in a healthy way, and i still occasionally struggle to do so. But it IS possible and it IS manageable 💕

me in the trenches every goddamn day

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hello arm and leg gains 💪

my morning routine: - wake up - 4 shots of espresso - open every spindlehorse document i have access to - ctrl f verosika - replace all with chaz - sit back and let a job well done wash over us 😎

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a moment for the nails 💅

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pics of me in the shark bikini coming tomorrow that may be life changing

my first spindle watch party!!

they made a chomp swimsuit just for me 🦈💕

The most likely answers are that the person who i bought her from had housed multiple spiders of different genders together, or she’s wild caught, but I’m going with “she is Spider Mother Mary and She Is Pregnant With 100 Baby Spider Jesuses” because that’s incredibly funny to me