@lanabeesfw pls educate me what are they doing?? 😅

There is no right or wrong way 💕 if you notice it after, apologize gently to yourself. Picture yourself as a little puppy or a bug or something innocent and sweet, and say “im so sorry i was mean to you, you didnt deserve that, i love you”. Its hard to take yourself seriously, and thats one of the struggles. But even if you dont believe it, even if you feel angry or ashamed or embarrassed to say it, say it anyways. Its your duty. If not for yourself, then for others around you that you love. Saying it even when you dont believe it, making it a habit, WILL eventually lead to you believing it. A really great tool ive found is almost pavloving myself so that even when i feel good, i remember to show myself that care and kindness. When i see a butterfly, i tell myself that i am loved. When i feel the sunshine, i tell myself my body deserves it like a flower. Being kind to yourself is really hard work. It takes repetition. It takes effort. You will have days where it is easy and days where it is the hardest thing youve ever done. But there is nothing you have done that cannot be fixed and cannot be forgiven. We cant change the past. But we can absolutely give ourselves a new beginning every day 💕

How do you handle it when the ball gets rolling on the negative self talk and you only notice it after? Or if you don’t take yourself seriously enough to listen? Asking for a… bird, one of my birds. That’s who I’m asking for, yeah

I just got home to Ajax after five days away, and look how much he has changed! Time replaced my scruffy little chick with a handsome and majestic bird. I missed so much of his childhood: Five days for me is like ten years for him. Now I know how the father from Interstellar felt 😭

What’s Pete Hegseth doing?

The most painful part of ADHD is something called RSD – Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It turns even the tiniest mistakes into a disaster, making you feel like you are a failure that ruined everything.

i think @lanabeesfw is a psyop i saw this bug outside & my first thought was to call him handsome & take pics to identify what kind of bug he is 😭😭

Dear @Aella_Girl, I’ve heard a lot of people seeming to think that I reject you wholesale, or that I don’t approve of you for being a sex worker. I want to set the record straight about why I do not want to work with you and have made certain comments, and offer the chance for a dialogue if you want. I also want to apologize. I don’t like you because of how my ex-husband, Ronny Fernandez, your plzdontkillus cofounder, would make sexual and romantic bids at you in front of me (presumably also in private) while we were in a monogamous relationship. This was his fault, and it contributed to our divorce, but because it caused me to resent you as well, I came to you about it, hoping to give you a chance to show you weren’t down with it. You were cold to me, dismissing my concerns with “he’s not my type.” At that point I realized we were not friends. It wasn’t your responsibility to stop him, but your priority was him and my feelings weren’t part of the equation. When you’re in an abusive relationship, it’s easy to feel more angry and betrayed at the people around you than at the abuser. I felt angry at you and many others from the rationalist community, as well as general rationalist culture, for supporting him. It’s not your fault that I was in an abusive relationship. It was his fault. Even though I think my feelings are valid, especially when you opted not to help me when I reached out, I recognize that I’m transferring anger onto you that really belongs to him. I saw you once say that I judged you for being a sex worker. I think you were remembering a time when I argued that, because Ronny had your nudes, you didn’t just have a platonic relationship. I have also critiqued the blurred line between your sex work and your intellectual content, where engaging with you without sex is still a form of flirtation and erotic connection, for a similar reason. My issue has never been with the sexuality. It had to do with how you and our mutual friends were insisting that I had no recourse against my partner cheating on me— that I was in the wrong for feeling jealous. Perhaps you regret this, or would regret this now that you know how I felt. It would make a big difference to me if you did. There are also subject matter disagreements I have with you on AI Safety work, and I wrote a lot of them up, but upon introspection I think that discussion would be pretty collegial if I saw you have empathy for a wound in me that’s still healing. The breach of trust was really a personal thing. I’m also writing to share my concern about your current relationship with Ronny. Ronny lovebombs you epically on main, and I think that could lead to epic devaluation and exploitation if you’re not careful. I have wondered if he’s pushed you to do and share more and more extreme things when I see him seeming to get dividends. I saw him negging you and undercutting you even when he and I were together, and he’s good at portraying that destruction of self-esteem as rationalist introspective virtue and fucky intimacy. No matter how annoyed I may feel at you, I would never want you to go through what he did to me. I’m going to unblock you, and you can DM or reply if you wish. Holly

baby preying mantis hatched on my deck and i am so thrilled so far ive seen: baby leopard slugs, baby preying mantis, baby jumping spiders its like a little ecosystem 🥰