At some point, in almost every successful artistās career, thereās a point where the ego takes over.
« Iāve worked so hard to get here and went through so many hardships, surely I deserve to sell?Ā Ā»
« My work is so good it deserves to be in a museum and studied. »
This mentality, fed by an ego measuring success with sales/recognition and the feeling of being « deserving », is faulty and quite toxic.
We have been conditioned into thinking that success is a combination of notoriety and money.
Paired with a deep feeling of « being deserving », it is a dangerous cocktail that will inevitably lead to more negative feelings I.e worthlessnesses, sadness, anger, depression.
Should your art, your passion, make you feel this way?
It is all an illusion, controlled by your thoughts, creating your own reality, influenced by your ego.
The ego is an insatiable part of ourself. It is not inherently right or wrong, it is human.
The trick is to be self aware enough to know when your ego is influencing your thoughts, and learn to control it. Keep yourself in check.
So the next time you find yourself thinking « it should have been me » or « this piece should be sold », ask yourself, is it the love of your craft, your art talking, or is it your ego?