I really want cut to atleast styro with this new boxcutter but I have zero energy to do anything.. i feel so pathetic cuz catscratches dont make me feel anything but disappointment but im also judt too lazy to cut any deeper
when this was happening over summer 2025 for me associated with my facebook feed, this kept trending
about an austrailian band - "the oz" - that's a nickname for austrailia
wizard of oz - the yellowbrick road
those opium poppy fields
and "just how" my meeting with this surgeon would trigger a very...theatric series of events for me
"but only" 1 month after you were pretty sure you were almost killed in Juarez, MX
and that you were like, "wow that really almost happened"
and just how not ok of a response that likely is for most people
just thinking about the boxcutter to the throat thing in the bathroom that time in El Paso
where they then told me the 2 women before me died with their throats slashed by similar circumstances and were badly injured prior too
like faces bashed into the bathtub - carpet having to be torn up as evidence kind of thing
and when that happened in...maybe February 2019
I was like, "wow that almost happened"
and I wasn't affected that much by it
with what I think was some kind of monitoring of me afterwards by the social services
"law enforcement"
wondering just why I wasn't hurt by these 2 males like the other women had been
and just why I wasn't that affected despite being held in the bathroom there with a boxcutter to my neck for...I don't know maybe 5 minutes or so
I think whatever happened then had kept following me with investigators in the area - recon in El Paso
that would lead me to this - to all this
gosh it's so hard coming back from something like this happening to you
I don't think you know just how hard it is when you already are having issues because you were sick in May 2025
and now you're just extra sick in June 2026
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So what will you do when a Sudanese man is sitting in YOUR chest, wielding a boxcutter, gouging out your eyes and slicing at your throat trying to cut off your head?
I was working a bit in my gamey thing after some tinkering with the "jetpack" mode, I decided to work more on a cube.I tried this weekend to make #DecalMachine work, and #BoxCutter, for @Blender but none of them seemed to work so I eventually re-did the thing manually..