You are improvising.
You don't fully know what you're doing.
No one does.
The confidence a startup founder role demands is, in a strict sense, a performance.
So the "impostor syndrome" feeling isn't lying to you.
The people who don't feel it are not better than you.
They've just mistaken the role..... for the self.... that gap does not compute. I would now consider that a personality disorder.
Why does "Imposter Syndrome" hit founders harder than almost anyone?
The founder occupies a uniquely fraudulent feeling position by design.
A founder is, definitionally, (and almost always) claiming a future that does not yet exist.
You stand in front of investors, employees, customers, your own mother, and you assert, with a straight face, that a thing which currently does not work, has no revenue, and may be physically impossible..... is inevitable.
You are there to narrate a fiction, with total conviction, until the fiction recruits enough belief and capital and labor, to drag itself into being real.
So of course you feel like a fraud.
The feeling of "fraudulence" is not a sign you're doing it wrong.
I would say that It's a sign you correctly understand what you're doing.
The founders who feel zero impostor syndrome are lying to your face, or worse, have lost contact with the epistemic situation.
Fuck it, let's go deeper.....
The whole impostor anxiety rests on the assumption that there's a "real you".
There is no fixed "real you".
The self is not a noun, it's a verb, it's a process, a continuous improvisation.
You were always improvising a self. You've been doing it since you were 4.
"Being a new founder" feels like impostorhood.... because it's a new improvisation.
Being "a normal adult," "being a friend," "being you".....those are improvisations too.
You just got frighteningly good at them that, you have completely forgotten they were also performances.