Exclusive of your mental illness, how do you imagine this to be true?
Even with hormone therapy, your biochemistry is male, even with surgery you are an anatomical male. Genetically you are male. Nothing will ever change this.
Women, on the other hand, simply are women. We don't need to do anything. Being female is our natural state of existence. We don't require any kind of external support or validation.
No one believes it is possible for a person to change their sex, "allies" included. They are only enabling your delusion.
Wear all the make up you want, you'll always be a man in lipstick.