Last year I was freaking out about the world my kids would come to inherit. Everything is going to shit (no for real it really is). Reality TV has taken hold, celebrity culture is electing politicians, and even worse tik tok and insta seem to be evolving their own, shittier version of present day reality tv - a space where name recognition exceeds any sort of qualifications or intelligence and we all end up on a bravo show of some shape or form
Kept trying to figure out how the fuck I set these kids up for success amidst this shit show, and started really getting after it. Tried everything, like everything, full sending with no reserves to escape the permanent underclass. Yet amidst the fog I felt compelled back to the Bible
So I started reading, relentlessly. Decided if there's one thing I can actually do it's raise a couple young good Christian men who understand God and his purpose for them
Problem is, I still don't understand His purpose for me, and I still suck
Good news after that is, reading (especially the book of Job) I don't think any of us are ever meant to understand His purpose
So many times throughout my life I've been pissed with an outcome I disagreed with, mainly because it was everything I wanted at that moment and it promised prosperity, wealth, success and recognition. For most of that history I've been mad as hell when it didn't work out... until about 6 months later when I said "Ohhh, yeah. That makes sense now"
This came to a crossroads a while back, because I was still clearly trying to manifest my own future while I'm sure He was looking on laughing
But it was an actually crazy opportunity that popped up most would count their lucky stars and consider themselves beyond blessed to be considered for
So I prayed. I prayed that God would make the choice blatantly obvious
And I think he did, and it wasn't the one I wanted at the time but I'm super grateful to have Him in the driver's seat and to have it work out the way it did
As soon as I got home and that avenue closed I had a way cooler idea. It was super weird how fast that idea hit
I don't think it's my idea, I think it's what I'm supposed to try, and I hope it works so I can build the cooler stuff that ships after it. He's flooding me with ideas
But at the end of the day even if it doesn't, I'm in a great place right now that previous opportunity definitely wouldn't have afforded, and it's terrific place for my family
God works in such cool ways