you self actualize by learning to lean into what you were running from* . i used to be chained to projects that didnt suit me and my body failed me every time ... took getting ill and learning to like who i was when i wasnt Doing to discover what it is i need to Do with my life
you don't self actualize through self care, contemplation, 'going within', etc. you self actualize by chaining yourself to some insanely demanding project and doing nothing else until it is accomplished