I am now a senior citizen, I realized I have done all that I never regret and would never said I wish I have done more adventurous travels.
I have done all the tourists places and luxury with maids and servants, it is never fun to go to places I never been to and got lost on the crazy streets that are without any order, in another language. Finding your ways around being lost in a foreign land seem to be the theme for travels. To what? to show off in front of your so call enemies that you have it better, more success, more rich. Meanwhile your busted 6 credit cards over the limits maintaining that life style, you would be in debt for the remainder of your life because you have no liquid income to pay rent and food, all that in investments that are basically invisible and untouchable. You are wealthy in ways everyone admire not knowing how hard you had to bend backward to get to where you are. Chewing invisible glass and smiling while pretending it is great. At end, we all sit in a wheelchair wearing a diaper eating pudding without our teeth, waiting for the news of another one of your friends died last year...
I watched my grandmother went through the stages of her life, I watched people in group therapies, at work, at home towns where they lived a rigid life style of constantly making demands on self and others like they are the military police, dictating those around them with manipulation and control. Life would never be simple around them. We really have only so many years left to live, you may as well live lightly knowing you are leaving behind a legacy not burdens.
我現在已是耬耋之年,我意識到自己做過所有不後悔的事,也從不後悔自己沒有去更多冒險的地方旅行。
我去過所有熱門旅遊景點,享受過有傭人伺候的奢華生活,去那些從未去過的地方,在混亂無序、語言不通的街道上迷路,這可不是什麼樂趣。在異國迷路似乎成了旅行的主題。為了什麼?為了在所謂的敵人面前炫耀自己過得更好、更成功、更富有嗎?同時,你為了維持這種生活方式,刷爆了六張信用卡,你餘生都將背負債務,因為你沒有流動收入來支付房租和伙食費,所有錢都投在了那些幾乎看不見、無法觸及的投資上。你的財富是每個人都羨慕的,卻不知道你為了達到今天的成就付出了多少艱辛。一邊嚼著看不見的玻璃渣,一邊強顏歡笑,假裝一切都很美好。最後,我們都坐在輪椅上,穿著尿布,沒了牙,吃著布丁,等待去年又一位朋友過世的消息…
我看著祖母走過人生的各個階段,我看著那些在團體治療中、在工作場所、在家鄉過著僵化生活的人,他們不斷地對自己和他人提出要求,就像憲兵一樣,用操縱和控制來支配周圍的人。在他們身邊,生活永遠不會簡單。我們剩下的時間真的不多了,不如輕裝上陣,因為你知道你留下的是遺產,而不是負擔。