i invite you to do as 1 John 4:1 says
"Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world."
that is how i found holy orthodoxy, i pass no judgement, only ask that you walk in my shoes and see for yourselves.
i came from small town baptist/pentacostal/non denom
origins, i was a soldier, believing i was doing Gods work overseas when i came face to face with God on a mountain, born again by fire, believing i was dead. i cried out to the Lord to save me.
since then i was a wanderer, thirsty and broken searching and seeking direction from God many years, eventually i was led by the Holy Spirit into the Church.
ive beeen to many houses, ive lived and learned by example, and at times found the devil looking for things i thought were Christ, misguided and misled by my own folly.
i thank God i have found holy orthodoxy, war almost destroyed me, but thanks to my priest, my parish and most importantly the grace of God i have found a renewed faith, eager again to seek and know Christ in all the ways i rejected Him long ago.
i am a catachumen now, i have learned the gospel again through the prayers and liturgy of the parish, i was shown that the first thing is to examine yourself, to look inward and see yourself for what you really are. i had so much contempt and hatred against God i had denied and repressed for a long time.
i used to have pride thinking i didnt need church, that most of where i attended, this or that church, nobody knew bible more than me, i was raised by a pentacostal pastor, i knew the scriptures by heart, but orthodoxy showed me i had wasted that knowledge by denying the fruits of the labor set before me, i had not lived the life i professed, no defense of self rightousness justified all the good things i thought i was, when in reality my faith, although hopeful, was only proving to myself that the deeds of faith appropriate the hope of faith.
when i cried out to the Lord, i saw that this act produced the seed that gave life in me. acting on that faith, like a good soldier, i knew i had to be in full obedience, following every direct order from the Holy Spirit, that eventually led me from the mountain and into the spring where i rest.
i hope you take what good can come from my story and edify God in your own lives